[Of....well you know by this point right?]

Oh God Oh God Oh God Oh God

The first time left me so meek
Eating apples & Goldfish for weeks—
Still eagerly awaiting next time!

I used to be so sure who I was
Sleeping in and collecting ticket stubs—
Now I just like to be up in the morning

I've been trying to preserve my being
I say I'm looking for love but it's meaning
Someone to have coffee with
Someone to sit around and wait with
But first there's the first dates till the moment they're asleep in your bed as you write this
(Stop putting a narrative on it!)
making you the biggest hypocrite

So rare, so difficult
To stay at home after waiting so long to pick up & go—
But it'll be worth it every time I wake up! (Right?)

Like leaves hanging off a dying tree
Olives soaked in a dirty martini—
I'm sorry, I keep trying to help myself

I want someone to take me across the globe
But more than that, someone to take me home
Someone to have coffee with
So I'm sorry M–––––––
Turns out I can't take my own medicine (who knew??)
I didn't know what I was then

Everyone stays the same
I keep changing to feel a little less lame—
I'm always catching up

The way you make jokes without any help
I'm still trying to explain myself—
Do I have any explanations yet?

I hope I fade out slowly in the end
I'm gonna fade out slowly in the end
I hope I fade out slowly in the end


—
Another day another day, we might meet again but it won't be the same
My memories of you get farther and farther away—
But life just keeps going on.