MONiKER EP

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released July 5, 2015

Songs by Jordan

Mixed by TD & Jordan

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I'm Jordan, and here is some music I wrote

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Track Name: Be
& you were so lovely
I didn't notice what was happening
I didn't think this would happen to me
But I wasn't happening
I wasn't anything

When the people you love aren't right under yr nose
& you're miles away and you feel a bit thrown
Surrounded by people who don't give a shit
So you watch their blank faces and cling to the bits

I've been attracted to yr inhumanity
But every conversation ends so unattractively
& we are not the beautiful couple we thought we'd be
Thoughts come in & thoughts go out
Maybe I'll never know what I'm talking about
In search of a certain elegance, will this all repeat again?

(-Yes? -I didn't know. I just learned. -Too bad...now you'll hate him, and you'll hate me too. -I don't know. -Of course you will.)

I stand right up & I say
"I see through you!"
But life just keeps going on

D̶a̶n̶t̶e̶ ̶n̶e̶v̶e̶r̶ ̶m̶e̶t̶ ̶a̶ ̶B̶e̶.̶ ̶ ̶ ̶T̶i̶m̶e̶ ̶i̶s̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶m̶u̶c̶h̶ ̶o̶f̶ ̶a̶ ̶v̶i̶n̶d̶i̶c̶a̶t̶i̶o̶n̶.̶ ̶
I̶'̶m̶ ̶j̶u̶s̶t̶ ̶n̶o̶t̶ ̶l̶i̶k̶e̶ ̶ y̶o̶u̶ ̶a̶l̶l̶.̶ ̶
J̶u̶s̶t̶ ̶s̶a̶y̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶m̶i̶s̶s̶ ̶m̶e̶,̶ ̶j̶u̶s̶t̶ ̶s̶a̶y̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶m̶i̶s̶s̶ ̶m̶e̶.̶ ̶
̶I̶ ̶d̶o̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶f̶i̶t̶ ̶i̶n̶,̶ ̶a̶t̶ ̶a̶l̶l̶,̶ ̶n̶o̶t̶ ̶a̶t̶ ̶a̶l̶l̶.̶

Turning each other off, still I kept holding on. Why? Why? Why? Why? Is it because

I've been attracted to your inhumanity
But every conversation ends so unattractively
& we are not the beautiful couple I thought we'd be
But what do I know about humanity?
Thoughts arrive so quick I wouldn't say they belong to me
Sometimes I'm human, & sometimes I'm just saying words

& I just go through the motions
Are these just lesser emotions?
But still, you tell me I'm so sensitive

& I guess I just do things just to do things & I do things, but do I just do things to feel like I'm here?

& I guess I just do things just to do things & I do things, but do I just do things to feel like I'm here?

I just do things just to do things & I do things, but do I just do things to feel like I'm here?

I just do things just to do things & I do things, but do I just do things to feel like I'm here?

(-That dream you had. -You were 50 years old, and you were happy. -And in this dream, was there anyone else? -There was. -Who? -You woke up, and smiled at someone next to you. I don't know who. -What else do you know?)

& we could shout into the void all day
But as long as I live so many miles away
Presence will be privileged
And that's all I can say

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(Dialogue from Bleu, & Rouge, by Krzysztof Kieślowski)
Track Name: I Was Born Disco, But...
O, I was born disco
But then the weights came
Like so much rain

From endless expanses
To numbered avenues
Never having a clue
Always 2 steps up and 2 steps down

I had never called it indie
It was only a melody
And a dancing beat

But O what it meant to me, messages sent to me
In codes I would never have tried to pretend I know
Immortality bestowed by posterity
I will sing my heart out til it's on my sleeve
I was born disco, but...

Like a MacArthur?
Or a Patton on the playground
Say you were just fooling around

So you could be kind to me
Or you could be blind to me
But spare me the humanity

I never called it indie
It was only a melody
And a dancing beat

But O what it meant to me, messages sent to me
In codes I would never have tried to pretend I know
Immortality bestowed by posterity
But give me a waltz or a mixtape of schmaltz
Like a father figure who'll be home for dinner
I will sing my heart out til it's on my sleeve
All of my senses before my intelligence
Four on the floor til my heart beats no more
I was born disco, but now I....I don't know
Track Name: Else
I wish I could be somebody else
Somebody you'd like
With the answers you'd like
Then I wouldn't have to stay up at night
I wish I could be somebody else

What if I'm more obsessed with you than anyone I meet?
Most days I think I'll never land on my feet
I can't even see my feet
I'm just obsessed with me, aren't I

I wish I could be somebody else
Somebody you'd like
With the answers you'd like
The kind to keep us up at night
I wish I could be somebody else

I don't have epiphanies, just things I never thought about
Because there so obvious IIII'm embarassed how long it took to figure out
My problems are still there, I just don't write them down
I don't write so well sometimes, well, you know



I put on jeans to write this
Maybe sweatpants would have been more symbolic

Else, Old English (elles--related to elles in French?); Proto-Germanic (aljaz), Gothic Aljis; Roman, Alius; Greek, Allos.
Can we go back any farther?

How far back in history do we have to go before I find me?
In the march of history what will become of me?

Maybe I should be an attorney at law?
Would I want to be an attorney at all
Could I have been put on this earth to own my very own house?
Put me in the pleasure box and I'll figure it out!

I'm trying to be somebody else
Somebody else—else—else—else
I guess we'll see?
Track Name: Rest My Head
I just wanna rest my head